The Wandering Monk

Kenneth Clifford

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Kenneth Clifford 

How Do I Forgive?!

This is it non-judgment. Looking, waiting, judging not. Looking with the Holy Spirit. Waiting with the Holy Spirit. Judging not.

What we really want is we want peace.
We want peace of mind so that’s why we’re here together in this moment to find that peace together

We’re here to explore together, aren’t we?
Hopefully, this helps to open up the mind.
To see the blocks to love’s presence.
To see those little dark spots that were hidden that have been in denial.

That’s why I like doing this too because I never know what’s going to come out and what’s going to be uncovered in my own mind. But I’m going to learn from all of this. What I’m going to experience from this and it’s nice just to allow every moment to be a wonderful moment, a perfect moment to expand your mind into everything.

Because that’s all it really is, isn’t it? Or the only problem is that we don’t believe that we’re everything and that we’ve become something dense seemingly and very small, insignificant in the seeming universe and yet we are this great power. We are this great beautiful loving light and we’ve forgotten that we’re pretending, that we’re not there.  So I think it’s always good to actually remember our full potential. That this isn’t it. That you are far greater than what you imagine yourself to be.

That’s what I want to remember every day. To know that I am a part of everything. Nothing’s outside my mind. So these are always just helpful reminders for that in our forgetfulness.

So maybe we can just take this in for a moment and just accept the power that you are.

Accept the truth of who you are, and allow all the thoughts to go blank. All the meaningless thoughts about some sort of character living a life and where there are many things outside of it, there’s an object and there’s a subject, and if we just allow ourselves just to let all that go then just maybe we might find the power within, the true power.

This is really what’s worthy of our time, isn’t it? Remembering our power, our truth. I feel the excitement in that. When we think about it just all of us now tuning in and being extremely focused in one purpose.

We’re all here for one purpose to awaken from the dream.
That’s why we’re all together and so there’s a huge expansion in this already. It’s a miracle that we’re all together. Just joining in this way and saying no to the dream and saying, “Okay we need a clearing. I want to perceive the truth and in that shared purpose, we have no idea what miracles are just happening in this very instant. Because you just can’t see the power of your mind right now.

 

But really deeply wanting to align with the truth and oneness is everything and now this is where our desire is.

Our minds are joining in a deep desire and so as the Course teaches us, when we are healed we are not healed alone. So even in doing this together, like the ripples are rippling out across the universe, and as Jesus says,
a bird begins to fly
a river that had run dry begins to run again
all by the power of your mind
to see life but not in the form
true life eternal life.

So you know I can feel there’s so much praise coming to us.
Through heaven and saying thank you.
Thank you for taking this moment.
Thank you for stopping that error in your mind for just a moment.
Thank you for just taking a little turn into the truth.
Thank you for your willingness.
Thank you for your desire.
Thank you for your peace.

 

And so, this is forgiveness.

This is it- non-judgment. Looking, waiting, judging not. Looking with the Holy Spirit. Waiting with the Holy Spirit. Judging not. Because there’s nothing really going on. It’s really funny because I know that I set this talk up as ‘how to forgive’ and it’s like my mind’s going completely blank and I feel like this is a sign. There’s nothing to forgive. Because when we stop, nothing’s gone wrong.

That’s actually the whole point- that nothing is happening to us.
That’s actually the absolute whole point of this- there’s nothing happening to us.
I guess that’s why we actually come together like this, just about a step away from everything.
Just so we can actually see that nothing’s going on. Because somehow it seems easier when we’re doing this together doesn’t it? It’s why we like being in groups and being surrounded by others. That somehow when we’re together, the mind can just settle down and the judgments of our self and the judgments of others start to decrease.

So that’s what we’re actually undoing we’re undoing this belief that we can even be wrong.
That we can be wrong about anything and that something is going wrong and that’s the whole trick.
That’s why we do need forgiveness. That’s the only thing that we’ve got. That’s the only helpful thing that we need.

So if we are feeling wrong, we’re feeling upset, then the only helpful thing that we have is- we have forgiveness.

 

Forgiveness undoes the victim and the victimizer story

If you’re believing that you’re a victim then you believe in victimizers. The victimizer needs victims and the victim needs victimizers. They come hand in hand. That’s how we stop all the blame because as Jesus teaches, you are doing this unto yourself and it is this that you will undo. So we have to take it fully back into our mind.

In actual fact we wanted this to happen and we are generating it from our own mind, from our own deluded mind. It’s now being projected out onto the screen and then it’s coming back to us as if it’s actually happening to us. It’s actually happening for us because you’re perceiving it. You’re wanting it to be true somewhere deep in your mind.

In your unconscious mind you are projecting everything out. You’re projecting this whole world, this whole universe and then whatever’s coming back at you is all the error the good and the bad.

So if we’re not seeing the sameness, if we’re not seeing oneness, if we’re not seeing perfection, if we’re not seeing truth, if we’re not seeing love, if we’re not experiencing peace, then there’s error.

It’s just pretty simple. But we don’t get left there because of course as we’re being told in actual fact there is no error. Everything’s already been solved. That’s the whole point of all of this. That it’s already done and over and you’re just actually seeing the past.

Your story is just going over and over and over and over and over but you’ve actually forgotten that it’s already over. So you’re just seeing the past. So in actual fact, nothing can hurt you. You’re believing in shadows but those shadows seem pretty real.

So that’s why we have forgiveness. Because it seems like we live in a fearful world.
The means are given but we have to take it all completely back to our minds. It starts with us and it stops with us. There’s no one doing anything to you. No one can do anything to you. They only do what you choose them to do to you through your lack of self-worth. Through the lack of truth within your mind. So we’re building up that strength in our mind to be fulfilled with light so we can completely and utterly look past all the errors that we seemingly find.

So that’s why it’s a great thing actually. It’s a great self-discovery. It’s a beautiful self-discovery and I loved that when I found it, it was like “What? It’s all me! Great! So now I can stop blaming the world.” Of course, we still do and I still do. But it’s like more and more wanting to bring it back to what we’re doing to ourselves.

Yeah well, I’m doing this to myself through my own thinking through my own thoughts. So if you can call on the darkness you can also call on the light. As Jesus teaches us, the ego lets the guilt out. Then the guilt comes back to you. But the Holy Spirit releases the love and the love comes back to you. So it actually depends on what you choose. What thought system you’re going to choose to use.

It’s like the story of the tribe leader who takes his granddaughter for a walk and he says, “Did you know that there are two wolves that live inside of you ?”
She said, “No I didn’t know that grandad.”
He said, “Well they’re actually at war with one another. One is very angry, arrogant, hurtful, hateful, only thinks of itself, and is very mean and terrible. The other one is loving, is kind, is peaceful, is thoughtful and considerate of others and wants the best for the whole.”
She says, “Well if they’re at war then which one wins?”
The granddad says, “It depends on which one you feed.”

I love that it’s a choice. It’s a choice as to what you want. Which wolf will you choose to feed?

So for me, the reason why this sort of came about is because it was so easy to forget forgiveness and really that’s the only thing that we’re doing all day. That’s our only purpose all day long. That’s our only function actually.  To keep letting go of all the thoughts. So I could see this in my own mind. Like little grievances building up in my mind and then just feeling like okay, I’m not so settled down as I was. Then I’m holding them and I’m completely and utterly forgetting to forgive these thoughts- the good and the bad. So I thought, yeah this is just a perfect reminder. This is just so important. Forgiveness it’s just everything we have. This wonderful gift in forgiveness. To see the false as false.

So I felt like I wanted this reminder for myself.  So I felt like sharing this reminder today. To really keep it in awareness. Because an interesting thing I’ve got my own little thing that was happening. Interesting because what I was seeing was that I was feeling dismissed.

I could see this happening and I’ve seen this pattern over and over again of being dismissed seemingly by others. It’s one of those things which makes me really angry and so what I did was I sat down and I was like,’ okay here we are again’ and luckily the thought sort of dawned on my mind and rather than going into how I feel dismissed, my thoughts went into how do you dismiss? Look at how you’re being dismissive. I was like, yeah good point and all of a sudden all these flashes of how I’m being dismissive came into my mind. So I sat there and I just wrote them. I wrote them all down. Very specific times when I was dismissive.

 

So what you project out is what’s going to come your way.

So the only way I’m going to dispel this dismissiveness is by looking at where I’m being dismissive. Not by looking at ‘all of those out there who keep dismissing me. I’m gonna have to stamp my authority and let them know that you don’t dismiss me.’  Whatever way you want to try and deal with it, you have to deal with it in your mind. There’s no other way of dealing with it. You have to forgive it in yourself.

So Jesus is with me saying, ‘don’t look too far from home matey.’ Look at where you’re dismissing don’t start looking out to the screen to try and save you. Because that’s the whole error,  placing everything outside of yourself. That’s where it gets kept and then it’s going to be another round or cycle of all of a sudden another month or two. Oh here I am I’m back to this dismissiveness again. But the only way this is ever going to be healed is by me taking full responsibility for what I’m doing and releasing it.

Because I’m believing in dismissiveness and I’m not believing that I am the light of the world. I am not believing that I am the power and that I am everything.
I’m believing in this tiny self-concept that can get dismissed and now I’m a victim of this world and it’s like, no! you are generating it in your own mind.

So all of a sudden, I wrote it all down and it all just completely and utterly cleared and I was just like, I am doing this unto myself! So I have the power to let it go!

You have to have the willingness to forgive. You must have the willingness to see what you are. Nothing else is going to help you. You have to want it above everything else.

 

It’s like Dorothy. You always had the power to go home you made it all up. You are at home. That was like the fundamentals of dispelling it in those instances.

It’s that strength again to keep looking at what I’m doing with my thoughts, with my desire, and with my wants that are being placed out there to keep them in guilt-ville. So I cannot heal them. So i can stay a prisoner in this hell that I made. It’s like, ‘no you’ve got to keep taking it back.’

So then my prayer was, I want to be dismissed. I want to clear this from my whole mind. I am not budging from this. If this universe needs to reflect and dismiss me completely then bring it on. I want to see equally where I’m projecting this out and being dismissive. I want to see it clearly so I can completely and utterly dispel it because it’s dispelling my joy.
Stopping me from being who I am. So why would I want to hold on to that? It’s like when you see it, it’s like well let’s bring it on. Then let’s clear the whole thing this is not needed any longer.

We have to say no to the ego’s games. We really really do. It’s kind of that simple. It’s actually just saying no, I’m not doing that anymore.

This world is always changing the outside world is always going to change. You’re never going to stop it. You cannot change the world but you can change your mind about the world.

 

 

As Jesus says, it’s not your readiness. I’m ready now. It’s just when you accept that everything is yours, it will be yours.
There’s no waiting around on this because it’s already over. These are the very high metaphysics that I hold in my mind. Because I want no delay and so I want to experience that.

I want to experience that fully so I’m not messing around with,
‘oh this is difficult,
this is tricky.
this is hard.
this is going to take forever …’

I’m not interested in any of that.
I’m just interested in changing my mind about my mind.

So I said this is about, ‘how do I forgive.’  In actual fact, I think you’ve got to want to forgive above everything else

That’s how you do it. You do it with everything. I remember when I first got into A Course in Miracles and someone said to me, I asked about forgiveness and he said, “forgive like your life depends on it.”  That’s how you do it. That’s how you will get out of this mess. You give. You will receive.

Give everything to this.
Give every fiber of your being to letting go of all of this.
Of forgiving the whole world and it will be forgiven.
So that’s the how. Do not stop forgiving.

As always let’s expect miracles.
Many blessings and lots of love bye for now

 

Excerpt from ‘Get Real” Episode ‘How Do I Forgive?’ Watch the entire episode now: