I have a little prayer for us as we settle in here and it’s actually by Mother Teresa and this is her prayer:
Dear Jesus, help us to spread your fragrance everywhere we go. Flood our souls with your spirit and life. Penetrate and possess our whole being so utterly that our lives may only be the radiance of yours. Shine through us and be so in us that every person we should come in contact with may fill your presence. In our soul let them look up and see no longer us but only you Jesus. Stay with us and then we shall begin to shine as you shine. So to shine as to be a light to others the light Jesus will be all from you none of it will be ours it will be you shining on others through us let us thus praise you in the way you love best by shining on those around us. Let us preach you without preaching not by words but by our example by the catching force the sympathetic influence of what we do the evident fullness of the love our hearts bear for you. Amen
Yeah I’ve always loved the idea of having a shepherd looking after me [Laughter] and yesterday that really touched me. David was speaking about it that there are no lost sheep. Even if one sheep goes astray, the shepherd will go and bring the one sheep back to the flock. I love that because on this journey, this seeming journey it can seem like I’m feeling pretty lost here right now and needing the reminder of ‘it’s okay.’ The shepherd has us. We are part of the flock. We’ve just forgotten we’re part of the flock and we’re pretending to be lost. It’s okay that no matter how lost you seemingly think you are, there is always one looking after us.
So yesterday David was sharing that with Sabine. Yeah, he looks after all of his flock. He’s accepted the atonement for himself so it’s like he knows that it’s all him. He loves to look after us. It’s his pleasure. It’s his joy to be there for us. There’s nothing else that he wants for us because he knows that it’s for himself. So that’s our remembering together and so somehow that touched me yesterday inside. I think there was the part of me that was feeling lost. I’m like, I’m feeling pretty lost at the moment and then it was like, oh it’s okay I can be a lost sheep. But it’s okay the shepherd has me.
This seems really important. Jesus really wants to share this message and so then of course through my prayer it was like okay I must be talking about the Lord, he’s my shepherd today. That’s the most important thing. It’s all pointing in this direction and that was just given me such strength in my mind to be like wow
I really don’t have to know where I’m going. You know when you watch the shepherd and the sheepdogs looking after all of the sheep, it’s like you know everybody is doing their part. The shepherd is watching all of his flock and he notices everything. He’s so trained in it and he’s taking them into the next field or wherever they’re going so they can graze. He sees everything and he’s okay there’s one over there and he’s bringing them back over here and then he’s bringing the dogs out to help. But we can see the dogs as the angels. It’s like they’re all keeping us all together and it’s like, it’s okay, we’re all going to the gates of heaven it’s okay. Of course we can see the gate and then the shepherd opens the gate and we all went to heaven.
It’s like a beautiful thing because the sheep they’re like, Okay the best thing to do is to stick together here. So they end up moving as one as oneness. If you’ve ever noticed that or you’ve ever seen it there they’re just moving together. Really that’s what we’re remembering, oh everything is actually moving together. It’s all one thing and I’m part of the greater flock and I am truly not on my own. In this scene in cosmos time and space that God knows nothing of. He’s saying, Come come with me. It’s okay there’s a far greater plan above all of this the flock even, isn’t it. The gate even isn’t it but we’re going to play with this for now children. Of course children we need games don’t we? Children like games and that’s what he says, you are a child. You have not grown up. You do not know your way and so you must take your father’s hand. So he’s going to play all of these games with us that we can joyfully learn. We can be so innocent as the sheep are and say, okay I need not know.
For me, it’s coming back to that humbleness every time. It’s the same lesson. It’s over and over again. Okay, I don’t know. I started to think I knew and then okay I don’t know. Okay, humbleness again. Let’s move forward and then the ‘i know’ comes in. Okay I realize I don’t know and you know Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit are always there saying, it’s okay we know that you think that you know because you’re fearful. It’s okay. No wonder you’re going to do that if you’re in fear you’re going to get frightened. Try and figure things out for yourself and it’s never that you’re doing anything wrong. It’s just when we remember again you can always take my hand and know that I am here with you always.
So it’s almost like we put our hand out don’t we. We say, have you really got my hand and he says, yes and we’re being convinced. have you really got my hand yes I’ve got your hand until we we we find that in our hearts um so this feels like a beautiful sort of round up about what um this whole get real thing has been about you know i was thinking about it today and it’s like well i don’t know i can’t really say it’s the end of anything i mean i don’t really know what that what that is it’s just everything’s continuing on in in the way that it’s supposed to but right now it feels like there’s a new opening um and prayer into um whatever needs to come through father i am yours i think that’s all i can say so we never want to get stuck into some sort of ritual or whatever um and it’s just to open up to to whatever’s next um it may continue how how how how do i know um but for me it’s been such a wow just a an amazing ride of doing this like i was talking to andy and i think it’s been although this is the 62nd one um I’ve also done with david the illumination of the celebration of illumination one so there’s about 64 or 65 episodes every single week for like 65 weeks or whatever it’s been no have not have not missed one and it’s like wow until there’s so much there there’s just wow i just can’t believe it really and i think this was the the whole point of today it’s like the lord is my shepherd i shall not want i guess this is this is this is this is the this is the joke you know um i am with you and it’s like interesting how it unfolded um in the beginning of of much more prayer um as to um what the episodes may be about and then the biggest lesson was um now you’re just gonna sit there without knowing anything and it’s like oh my god you’ve gotta be kidding me and i can just remember um sitting in the chair back in the old um studio that we had and it’s like the sweat is like pouring down my face and the ego is like say something you know and just you look like an idiot what the hell are you doing and this is going on and I’m trying to focus just thinking oh my god I’m live to the world here what the hell is going on but it was so beautiful to face it just like okay um i have no clue what I’m doing i am in so much doubt right now but it was so beautiful to go through it and just you know really that was the lesson it’s like it’s okay it’s okay you don’t have to know i have you and i want to i want to take your being over i want to i want to speak through you and i know that you’re frightened and that’s okay and the ego is going to come up when we try things like this but just know that i am with you know that i have you no matter what that i won’t put you in a position that you cannot handle that this is all completely perfect don’t worry that you’re live it’s okay and it was like very it’s been very strengthening in my heart [Music] to know that and in fact i think the um it was like leading me up to i did another talk for the um acim festival that’s right my friend andreas we met some years ago and then he phoned me up and says hey you want to do a talk I’ve been loving get real and I’m like yeah sure why not oh my god what have i just said yes to am i ready for this what the hell’s going on and um i knew that there was all these translators and everything and i really had tried to slow myself down and when we had we’ve had portuguese and spanish on our retreats and it was just really hard for me and i was like okay Jesus this time I’m ready and now I’m okay i don’t know how to do this um but it was such a beautiful lesson again it was it was like really like he did it and i didn’t even know like there was that there was a there was a um andreas had invited us to um all the seeming teachers um to um be um on the day and it was like on the thursday that’s why i was doing the talk on the friday and all the teachers would have to be there possibly if they could be there on the thursday just to introduce themselves and i couldn’t because i was doing get real and i was grateful that i didn’t do that because i would have found out that actually i was going to be the whole the very first speaker of the whole event i only realized that afterwards it’s like andreas never said oh and by the way you’re opening the whole event otherwise the nerves would have been probably completely out of the roof and so i woke up that morning and i felt i felt completely great and it was like it was 7 00 am in the morning for me and the retr and because it was in germany it was like something i think it was like two or three p.m so it was their afternoon so i was just waking up so i was in a very prayerful meditative state i can wake up and be like this I’ve got to be honest it doesn’t take much for me to just go hello good morning but um it was like it was all perfectly set up and this time there was like four translators but i completely and utterly forgot about that and i was sat in this very chair and it was it i’d got up I’ve been sitting in the chair for about an hour very very peacefully and it’s just always the same thing like okay you know remembering remembering what I’m doing it for and it was like okay if i think um and i shared this on the talk it was like okay if i actually think that I’m talking to possibly over 200 people oh my god what the hell am i doing who the hell do you think you are or is it just for my joy and just my fun and just to practice being with Jesus and um over to you lord then it’s like okay this is really really fun and so that was just my prayer in my mind okay is it it’s over to you Jesus and my prayer is just just to bring me joy and it was like i spoke so slowly it was like i was like taking over and i was speaking so slowly and it was like of course because all my fear was i would forget where i was at because i wouldn’t be talking at my normal pace but it was like i was so in the moment of just being carried along moment by moment by moment and it was just like a beautiful like meditation for me that was extremely joyful and right at the end um one of the translators come on and just said and uh and and i knew her her name’s um anya and she just said i just want to come on and say thank you so much because i was so concerned that you would talk so fast and yet you talked so slowly that we could all keep up perfectly it was just such a perfect orchestration I’m so grateful i said well listen trust me if it was down to me i know i find it very hard to contain myself so clearly um Jesus was at the world there I’m helping me to okay let’s i need i need to use you for this message and everyone needs to hear this so you allow me um to take the will and so i think that’s been the the the beautiful thing about um these past episodes it’s like Jesus is always cheering us on you know it’s like he put me into these positions and i thought god if i thought about this a year ago i could never handle it and it’s like it’s okay it’s okay I’m with you it’s okay you can do this you can do anything when you when you when when you’re with me you can allow yourself to surrender to my strength to the true strength you know it’s like that’s what you’re saying to us all day long it’s okay you can trust me it’s okay I’m with you you’re not alone i walk with you always and forevermore and it’s like he sets up these joyful things for us to do it’s like wow 65 episodes i never knew that in the beginning and it’s like oh my god wow what a gift what an amazing gift that was to show me just that he loves me that was all it that’s all it ever is for really and just to say hey you can let me into your heart it’s okay it’s truly okay and to be fair i can’t tell you how many gifts that have been given i think probably that will start to drip through now um because there’s just been so many and i couldn’t imagine how it’s all unfolded in this way it’s like his plan is truly far greater than mine [Laughter] because it’s exciting i just don’t know what’s around the corner but that’s not that’s not fearful in actual fact and he here’s my other greatest gift is that it is a joyful journey [Laughter] it is it does get hard but you can laugh about it you really can that has definitely been been been a gift from this it’s like really this can be joyful yes you sure yes so i needed a lot of convincing on this [Laughter] and that’s what this has seemingly led me to and in actual fact the other the other gift is well the greatest gift of them all really is forgiveness [Laughter] that’s that that’s that’s that’s the greatest gift it’s like you mean i can let go of everything and i never did anything wrong yes wow that’s amazing thank you yeah and we keep going until we realize it for real okay perfect wonderful and i think through that that has created like his strength in forgiveness it’s like it’s not a personal sense of self that’s forgiven forgiven it’s it’s the whole thing’s forgiven and it’s like it’s almost like you’re you’re stepping into that and you’re like really wow there’s a strength that you can just say no to all this yes completely you already have said no to it and you’ve already said yes to your father that’s good to know okay yeah and we’re just building we’re building more and more strength seemingly it’s like okay that’s great and that’s what i think I’ve I’ve seen from all this there’s a there’s an inner strength that says okay this seems to be getting really difficult um the lessons um and i don’t know where i am and i can’t see these blind spots and i need to trust even more but yet there’s trust in my heart to say okay this is just this is just another step it’s just thoughts feelings and emotions and truly nothing is really going on and yet all i have to do is take that step forward and to see it for what it is and i think that’s what’s actually happened it’s like before when the fear comes up it’s it’s like oh my god the the natural thing is to do is to withdraw like okay oh i don’t want to look at that thank you very much this is whoa this is way too fearful but i think what the learning has been is like no look at it with me look at it inside with me and it’s like I’m looking at it and it’s like okay it was actually nothing you know and that’s definitely what’s been what’s been building the strength you know daring to look within daring to keep to keep just facing it and that’s definitely what’s built the strength i remember actually david you said some time ago uh to me god it was about three years ago and uh all of a sudden my mind just changed um into this sort of given state and um my thoughts of judgment of myself and of others was like evaporated it was like they’d seemingly like gone and if there were um judgments or grievances it was like they were coming like circling in like planes but as they came close they were just and it’s like okay that one’s gone it couldn’t touch and i was just like my god it is so it is real it is for real like i can really let go of these judgments as he says you never could judge so it was just like another step and it was just like like you know when like the flies come or the bees come upstairs i said and there it goes it’s off again it was like that’s what judgments were for me and i was like oh my god it’s real Jesus thank you so much i really cannot judge cannot touch me okay i wasn’t completely over the line of non-judgment but it was like they couldn’t come into this sense of being that i was that i was in and it was like my seeming body i seemingly get back pains and it was like i was like a 17 year old again like i had no ache in my body i got up and it was like I’m 17. it’s a miracle i had more energy than i have now believe it or not and it was like where’s all this coming from and i would lie down at night and it was just this energy was just like emanating just like just like ah just like resting in my heart or something it was just like like such a restful night and then waking up as bright as a button you know it’s just like oh my god what the hell can i give and i would wake up early in the morning and make make videos out of um david’s talks and then i would do a little meditation with the group funny enough in this room and the the it was just um if if we wanted to and so some would come and come and join in that and then they would come in and they’d be like what have you been up to because I’ve been awakened i just made this video now I’m going to do this meditation and I’m going to do this i just couldn’t keep up and it was like everything that was needed would be given to me like i just couldn’t stop giving i mean i was literally like doing something and then like the gift of god like I’ve even forgotten about the body or drinking or eating or anything and then i turn around and someone would be bringing me a drink or something and be like here would you like a drink and i’d be like god that’s amazing i’ll just drink that and i carry on it was like everything was just like the universe had just sort of bowed to me and said wonderful just give with your heart and it’s like and everyone’s like okay I’m feeling a bit tired now and I’m like yeah I’m just gonna go and make another video and i just couldn’t help it and it was like because the judgments weren’t there it’s like as he says like judgments are really really tyrant and so they’d completely like left me and all’s i was was in this sort of like state of just like i thought that’s all i could describe it was i was like a 17 year old again with like this fresh mind and um no judgment and so of course there was obviously fear in the background and i remember talking to dave and i was like david can i talk to you and you’re like yeah sure and i was like well I’m in this state now but how do i how do i keep it going and he said and you said to me you said well this is like you’re like a runner and you’re in the blocks and now you’re out of the blocks and you know you’re going you know you’re in the miracle and you’re gonna you’re gonna need this momentum for the lessons to come lessons to come i thought I’m getting pretty close to the finish line here i was hoping you were going to say yeah you’re almost at the end of 100 meters not quite just out of the blocks you said yeah you’re building the momentum here um and you’re gonna need this momentum to face your lessons it’s like okay [Laughter] and it’s like we cannot help but remember these lessons and like like now there’s sort of like strength and I’m like oh i can see what you meant by that now because it was like more lessons come up and it seems much more intricate seemingly so the ego wants to make it but it’s like that strength I’m sort of like out of the blocks and I’m like still like okay I’m doing it I’m in the miracle and that strength is like okay there’s more strength okay and so we’re going into the next um part of the race you know and we’re just continuously building in the miracle that’s what we can trust that’s all we can trust we just expect miracles and that’s why i think that that that’s where that that saying came that you gave to me david you know um in my very first encounter with you okay this is what we’re doing you said well your desire is really high that’s for sure let’s expect miracles and that was it and then that’s seemingly what what became get real it’s like okay i have to i have to expect miracles i have to and it’s like you’re eva you know like today I’m reading well you’re you’re either expecting grievances or are you expecting miracles there’s it’s one or the other you’re either in a grievance or you’re in the miracle that’s it’s very basic stuff and so really this is what it’s all about it’s just we join deeply in that miracle no matter where you find yourself you know every thursday we’ve been here and no matter where you find yourself it’s like here comes the miracle you know okay here it is again here it is again that’s right okay yeah the mind may have wandered off and yet we come together again and say i am entitled to miracles i need a miracle and so that’s really really the really the bottom line and just thank god that we have that i just feel so blessed that it’s actually so simple yeah and just to keep trusting and so it’s like we are Jesus’s flock here now and he’s saying it’s okay I’ve got you no matter what you can always call on the miracle with me so that’s what we’ve been doing for 65 weeks so thank you for joining me it’s a true pleasure
yeah so i wonder if you have any thoughts for us david yeah it’s building the strength like you said it’s interesting while we’ve been having the get real show that the chosen episodes have been rolling out and back in the beginning one of the the early scenes was [Music] mary magdalene seemed to be possessed uh of the devil so to speak and um yeah they didn’t know what to do they they tried to get hermes they tried to get people to help her but they they really weren’t successful at all and basically the the priests were chased away by the the devil in her and then Jesus just very calmly took her and and talked touched her and spoke to her and then she was calm and clear but the last episode uh i think there’s another episode that just came out last night so everyone’s anticipating the next chosen episode but the one prior to that was someone had come into the camp with the apostles who who was dealing with the demonic possession and then she she was triggered by that it reminded her and then she um she left she left Jesus and the apostles and went back to where the city where she had been and Jesus just okay andrew go and find you know mary mary meghala and and andrew’s like okay all right all right i’ll do it and everything and before you leave uh take matthew matthew there’s where his grievance was so it seems like on the surface of things it’s a m